What is Cosplay?
You dress up as your favorite character from any animation, comic or movie.
Why would anyone want to do that? Passion overload.
I am not a professional cosplay(er). It was something I was going to do one time that was on my bucket list. It became addicting!
So why is a 30 year old into this? I never had a chance to be passionate about anything as a child. I did not get to truly experience life until later on as a adult. Moving on.
Since experiencing the freedom of adulthood I decided I was going to do the things I have always wanted to do.
First thing was a big vacation but that’s a blog for another time. Check.
Second thing was to cosplay and attend my very first anime convention.
Anime was a gateway for me. It inspired me to draw, write and yearn to explore this vast magical world of ours.
I was never able to buy collectibles so I drew them. I had a small collection of manga (Japanese comics) that I used earnings from my first job in high school to purchase but my father gave them away without my knowledge. So I made comics of my own. The expense alone to crafting a cosplay and attending a convention put that goal to a halt. Not happening.
I did start sewing projects with the intent of making it a career but I was talked out of it. It was more so that I was talked down to the point that I was discouraged to continue. All that has changed however when I decided I didn’t care anymore about the invisible obligations family members expect you to have. How can you say no when you lived your whole life trying to get their approval? I realized how miserable I was trying to make others happy because I was emotionally exhausted. I am off topic but you get it right? Or not it’s cool.
I’m going to do this.
I said it as often as possible until I was able to get the badge for my first anime convention.
My first cosplay was terrible! I sew the hard way. By that I mean I don’t use patterns. I kind of wing it. Big mistake. Years later and I still don’t use patterns but I guess I haven’t learned my lesson.
I was clueless the first convention so I missed out on a lot of activities. It was, however, such a thrill to finally fulfill a goal I have had for so long! I had a great time! It was huge! There was so much happening all around. It was such a welcoming environment. I may have looked silly but I did not feel as such.
The best part of this convention is that I was introduced to performing aerial professionally and for that, I am grateful. I have been to multiple conventions since and it has been awesome! People are so talented I would be at a loss for words.
Then there was performances. I was to cosplay as a themed character and perform on my lyra. Performing at the convention was a mix of nerve wrecking and thrilling.
I practiced as often as I can. Each practice had problems. I could never get it right. The music and my routine never matched. I would complete the routine too soon or too late. It was a disaster. It is so motivating though! To keep a healthy fit lifestyle so that I could continue this activity. When the time came to performing I wore a cosplay I knew would hide my identity completely should I ruin everything. Also, I wanted to prevent a wardrobe malfunction. This character suited me perfectly. There were so many people in the audience I wanted to curl into a ball and cry. Why do I want to experience new things I thought. WHY!?
To my surprise my performance went smoothly. Right on cue. Where the deuce did that come from I’ll never know. All I do know is that this experience only added to my newfound decision that I was going to put myself first. I am going to freak out and try new things because it makes me happy in a sometimes frightening way. If that makes sense. This year I have big plans for a couple of conventions and this time my kids will come along! I can’t wait to see how that goes.
I am finally happy.